Sexy

Sexual

Craig’s refusal to jump into bed with me knocked me, but I’m glad he did. It made me realise just how insecure I am still – about my body, about myself as a person, but mostly about myself as a sexual woman. It’s been so long since I’ve been sexual or even seen myself as…

Lean

I went on a second date with Craig today. It was a little different to our first; Craig ramped up the flirting. As we waited for our food, he leaned in as close as he could, held one side of my face with his hand, bringing my ear closer to his mouth, and whispered, “I…

Needed

I went on a date with Craig today. It’s the first date I’ve been on since leaving Tom, and my first date in over seven years. To say I was nervous would be an understatement. We arranged to meet at a local pub at lunchtime. I was there first and waited nervously for him. He…

Scared

I am scared. I went on quite a journey before I realised just how scared I am. It started by looking at some self-portraits by a photographer whose work I admire, seeing how beautiful and sexy she is. Remembering how sexy I used to feel, such a long time ago. Going to my bedroom and realising what…

Fifteen

In fifteen days, I will leave this house and my life with Tom forever. The children and I are going to our new home, where we have choices in how it’s decorated and what we watch on TV, how I spend money and what food we eat. I also get to give Annie a bedroom…