Tag: Maxine
Food
Dreaming I am in Maxine’s home, but sometimes she is Louise and my nan’s energy. Ivy is in her bedroom. Maxine is cooking food; I sit on her sofa. I see Ivy on the toilet; she hides my view with a bird cage. A cat goes in my bag and takes a bite out of a packet of cheese I have in there; I give it the rest to finish. I leave Maxine’s house without the food that I think she is making for me. I step outside and see a man,…
Deluge
For far too long I’ve felt like surrendering to my pain and allowing myself to drop deeper into the black hole that has become my life for the last eleven months. Instead, I went to see the doctor two weeks ago. She said I was depressed, that the last few years have caught up with me and…
Notes
It’s been two weeks since Maxine died. My devastation is beyond anything I’ve felt before. It has shaken me to my absolute core. I seem to be spending too much time in bed – feeling scared, more than anything else. Maxine was a light that shone so brightly. She lit up the room when she walked…
Spirit
Dreaming I’m at Louise’s house, looking over at Maxine’s house. I’m in Maxine’s house; there are many rooms. Maxine is there in spirit; her sisters are there. I’m watching people walk along a bridge when a boy falls over the side. Maxine’s sister grabs him just in time There is a large tank of water; Amy and Alfie are in one side, Michael in the other. I produce something to give to Michael which has lots of kind words on it. There’s another man in the tank/pool on the right. (Tom) He…
Shatter
My heart feels as though it’s about to shatter with the pain of losing Maxine. I turned to Tom during my darkest hour, but he isn’t even attempting to understand my grief or what I’m going through. It’s all about him and his needs; all he cares about is himself. He didn’t even offer me…