On/Off Feelings

Broken

I missed Phil so much all day today. I longed to see him, snuggle in his arms, and just talk. I decided to book something as a belated birthday present for him – a night away. I decided on a date, but when I spoke to him, he said he had plans on that day….

Be

I spent the afternoon with Phil today. It was perfect. Every time we’re together, it feels so good. Being with Phil is the only time I feel grounded; the rest of the time, I feel slightly out of control and very empty. Despite that, I still can’t say that I won’t end things with him…