Try/Attempt

Lock

Dreaming I am in Alan and Sam’s house outside in an alley; it is daytime. Sam has come outside to look at something. We go back inside, as I am going to be at their house when Sam goes out. I am sitting on a chair using my laptop. It is nighttime; it is dark….

Headfuck

Amelia saw Phil holding hands with a woman. I’ve barely thought about Phil since we split up, apart from when I slept with Tom and I realised that he isn’t a patch on Phil in any way. Why then, now that he’s definitely moved on, do I start to care? At first I felt pleased…

Try

I succeeded today. The only way to fail is to not try, and to try is to be successful. I took action. The steps were small but significant because they took me one step forward compared to where I was yesterday. I suppose all I can do is take one small step forward at a…

Secret

It’ll be Tom’s birthday in a couple of months. I’ve decided to throw him a surprise party to celebrate. It’s also to show him how much he means to me, in the hope that he will want our relationship to work, and will love me back in return. Loads of his friends and family – some…

Engaging

We took the girls on a day out today. Tom spent the whole day engaging the older girls in the activities and caring for Annie, so that I could spend some quality time with the other children. It was such a lovely day – made even better when Annie giggled for the first time. It…

Josh

Dreaming I am in a large department store with Josh. I see Fern and ask her if she is pregnant; she is, and she shows me her tummy. I show her mine because I’m pregnant too. I hear Bridget call me; she’s pregnant too. I ask Fern how long she has left; she says two weeks, but…