Wish

Beside

I woke this morning to Tom masturbating in the bed next to me. I lay there wishing he would have sex with me, but instead he carried on as if I weren’t even there. I feel so desperately sad. Now I know for sure that it’s not a lack of sex drive that’s the problem;…

Bliss

Today was one of those days that I wish happened much more often. Tom, feeling guilty for going out most of the weekend, said he wished that I would go out for a whole day and night and have some fun. With Annie still feeding so much, I don’t feel that I can do that,…

Warmth

It was so cold today. I ran a hot, deep bubble bath in the middle of the afternoon, and soaked for an hour with Annie to warm up. The trouble came once I got out – I didn’t want to do anything for the rest of the day. I dreamed of putting on my pyjamas,…

Fever

I have mastitis, and I feel awful with a fever and lethargy. Tom has been so good to me all day. He stayed home from work, took the older girls to school and cared for Annie all day. He made me a bed on the sofa with a duvet and pillows, and told me to…

Break

Sometimes when Annie cries, I just need a bit of a break. I need to cook dinner, or do some washing, tidy up, have a shower, or just have five minutes to be me again – to recharge my batteries so I can go back to holding, playing, feeding, comforting. I wish Tom made that…

Viewings

“It’s about time we took this to the next stage after three years together. Why don’t you start looking at homes and find one for me to buy? Find a nice area, somewhere in between where we both currently live. Make sure it’s got everything we need.” I asked if he was going to look…

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