I’ve had a really productive and positive day. I was asleep by 10 pm last night, and I think it’s made a big difference to my energy levels and my mood. I feel relaxed and calm. Not only is it the extra sleep, but it’s the weather. I’m always more productive in autumn and winter. I love rainy days; I love being indoors with the wind and rain battering the house. It makes me feel cosy and like I want to build and nurture my nest. Today it has rained most of the day, so I’ve been as happy as I can be.

My feelings about Phil have settled today too. I read some articles about relationships, and from them, I realised that Phil is perfect and will make the perfect partner, and that if I have days when I worry that I don’t love him enough, that love will grow over the coming years because he’s too good a man for it not to.

My only wish for today is that Phil were coming home from work tonight to our house. Not him going to his. Cosy autumn evenings, Phil and I snuggled on the sofa listening to the rain, for the rest of our lives.