Sleep

Fog

I have the worst case of PMS today, but it doesn’t come in the form of mood swings, it manifests as extreme tiredness and a complete lack of concentration. I have spent most of the day in bed sleeping, and when awake, wishing I were sleeping and trying to stay awake. I drove to Tom’s…

Bliss

Today was one of those days that I wish happened much more often. Tom, feeling guilty for going out most of the weekend, said he wished that I would go out for a whole day and night and have some fun. With Annie still feeding so much, I don’t feel that I can do that,…

Mother

Tom came home from his skiing holiday yesterday. I went to pick him up at the airport, but when I saw him, my heart sank. I suddenly realised what a lovely stress-free week the children and I had, and how it would all change. He appeared at the airport entrance sun-burned and saying he was…

Open

Dreaming I am at home, upstairs with Abi and Connor, squeezing spots on Connor’s eyes. The spots aren’t visible, but I know they’re there. Loads and loads of pus is coming out of each one. I go around the house opening the windows. I open two upstairs and then one downstairs – the living room…

Snoring

Annie’s been really unsettled for the last few weeks, even more so than usual. I’ve been feeding her at least five times a night, every night, sometimes more. I’m managing on three to four hours of broken sleep, and I’m completely exhausted. Tom keeps complaining that we’re disturbing his sleep. Today, he even said that…

Skill

Dreaming I am in Dad’s car, in the backseat. Abi is in the passenger seat, and Josh is driving. We are going to Jim and Mary’s house. I have to pick Dad up again at 1.30 pm; it is already that time. A car approaches ours, and Josh skillfully reverses the car to let the…

Guard

Dreaming It is a Saturday morning, and I am driving to Elmsford. Greg, Amelia and Rosie are with me. The car doesn’t feel like it is working properly; it is bumpy, but I ignore it. I am driving fast, and I find myself falling out of the window. I struggle to get back in and…

Gang

Dreaming I have been to the theatre with Tom. We go back to his house, which is a bungalow. It has a large grass area out the front of the house and a block of flats behind it. There is a gang war going on as we approach; we ignore it and go in. Tom…

Imposing

Dreaming I am living at Church Lane, but this time it belongs to me. It is the summer. Abi lives with me, and Izzy lives next door. Abi comes into the front living room; she is dressed smartly. I ask her where she is going; she tells me to a meeting, and she goes, leaving…

Mud

Dreaming Izzy is pregnant; she is insisting that we take her to the hospital as she wants to give birth. I keep saying to her that it isn’t time yet, as she isn’t having contractions and her waters haven’t broken yet, but she still insists. Izzy becomes Josh and says, “Actually, my waters have broken.”…

Water

Dreaming I am driving my car with Tom in the passenger seat; he is sleeping. We are on Colt Way, before the roundabout, heading home. Up ahead and to the left is a controlled volcano; it is erupting, and loads of big rocks, slates, and rubble are falling down. I have to drive my car…

Josh

Dreaming I am in a large department store with Josh. I see Fern and ask her if she is pregnant; she is, and she shows me her tummy. I show her mine because I’m pregnant too. I hear Bridget call me; she’s pregnant too. I ask Fern how long she has left; she says two weeks, but…