Surprise

Illogical

I suddenly had the strongest intuitive sense that I needed to have sex with Tom today. It didn’t make any sense to my logical mind, but I couldn’t rid myself of the feeling. After trying to make sense of it for a couple of hours, I decided to listen to it instead. I sent Tom…

Bewildered

I went for breakfast with Karen and Cheryl today. We chatted about friends and their values, which prompted me to say that I felt I’d changed so much in the last year or so, whereas before I was really accepting, understanding and forgiving, I now am the opposite. If a friend expresses something that I…

Healing

When Tom came over to see the kids tonight, we got talking, just the two of us. We were talking about nothing much, but it somehow led to a discussion about saying sorry for things you’ve done and how it’s a sign of emotional maturity. I went on to say that sometimes we need to…

Ring

Dreaming A man, possibly Phil, puts a silver ring on my ring finger. The ring is small and fits perfectly. I wonder how he knows my size, as the ring is a complete surprise. I look at the ring; engraved on it are the words “Marry me”. I feel warmth and love. I am pregnant….

Push

On Friday, I finally got our new home into a nice condition to live in. The builders all left a few days ago; the new carpets were put down today, and I cleaned and tidied it all, so it was spotless. To my surprise, I found myself wanting to invite Phil round to show him…

Thirty-Six

Dreaming I am on a street with Dad, about to go and view a house. I am looking at a house on one side of the road which looks really nice; it is number thirty-seven, but I’m not sure it’s the right one. I look for number thirty-eight as I’ve forgotten which one we’re seeing. Dad then says he can see which one; it’s over the other side of the road and is number thirty-six. The house is grotty. It is boarded up and run down, whereas the one over the…

Shudder

Dreaming I am on the upstairs landing of a house that is mine but not recognisable to me. There are lots of things around me, and if I look up, there is an open-plan loft with loads more stuff. I am in the process of sorting it all out, getting rid of stuff I don’t…

Snap

It’s been such a long time since Tom and I had a good day together; all we’ve done for months is argue. My resentment towards him builds more and more each day, but the other day he really surprised and confused me. Out of nowhere, he bought me a new camera, a really good one….

Warmth

It was so cold today. I ran a hot, deep bubble bath in the middle of the afternoon, and soaked for an hour with Annie to warm up. The trouble came once I got out – I didn’t want to do anything for the rest of the day. I dreamed of putting on my pyjamas,…

First

I left Annie with Tom for the first time tonight while I went out for dinner with friends. It was really lovely to have a break, but so difficult to walk out the door. I missed the children and was worried about how he would cope with all four of them, but when I got…

Flimsy

Dreaming I am walking along a street, heading downhill, when a Chinese/Hong Kong woman approaches me. She speaks quietly so no one else can hear and asks me if I will have her dog. She means forever. I’m not sure, but I agree. She tells me he is at the bottom of the hill – the big shaggy dog. I get to the bottom and see the dog; it is huge, much bigger than I…

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