Dreaming

Julie is staying at my house because no one else wants her anymore. She is upstairs and has taken a hose from the bathroom, turned it on and soaked one of the bedroom carpets. There is water everywhere. I am so angry, and I don’t want her anymore now either.

All of my family are sitting in a big circle. Tom, Izzy, my nieces and nephews, my children, everyone. Josh is feeling a bit scared and vulnerable; he is naked. He wants to sit on my lap. I think it’s a bit odd, but I let him, and he feels better. Everyone is sitting, watching Julie trying to destroy things, but no one is stopping her. It is all down to me to stop it, and I feel overwhelmed. It’s like we’re all sitting around a big bath.

A girl in the garden outside says loudly, ‘Ricky is a cunt.’ I tell her off for using such bad language and find her behaviour far worse than anything Ricky may have done. I feel very protective of Josh and can feel how vulnerable he feels. In fact, I feel as though I am there to protect everyone, the whole of my family.