Family

Runners

Dreaming It is morning; I have just woken. Greg/Tom (Greg is more prominent) is in bed next to me.

In six days, I get the keys to our new home. I wish I could say I’m excited, but I don’t really feel anything. This house – or at least the things that are mine – is still nowhere near packed. I’ve done most of the bedroom, half of the older girls’ stuff, the utility…

Denial

Tom seems to be in complete denial that our relationship is coming to an end, which doesn’t make a great deal of sense to me, given that he’s shown me almost nothing but hatred for so long. Yesterday, he invited my sister and her family around for a barbecue. He got the paddling pool out…

Strength

My sisters are all very different, yet all have a similar streak. Control. They all control the people in their lives or their environment. Do I control? My children? No. I’m very easy-going with them. Men. No. They have controlled me. Housework. No. It always feels out of my control. I do control myself, and…

Garden

Tom has been away for four days visiting his family. While he was gone, I decided to give the garden a makeover to create somewhere for the children to actually be able to use. All of my children, Susie and her two children, and my two oldest nephews came to help. By the end of…

Eve

One of my favourite days of the year is Christmas Eve. For the past few years, my entire family has got together for a Christmas dinner at a restaurant. This year was a little quieter and less hectic than usual as not everyone could make it, but it was still lovely. The only downside to…

Brother

Dreaming There is a party for someone in the family. It is taking place in a club/pub but also at my mum’s house. She is throwing a party, but I don’t think anyone will turn up at hers; I think they’ll all stay at the club. I am at mum’s; it’s time for the guests…

Hand

A couple of days ago, Tom and I walked into town for a look around the shops with Annie. We stopped for lunch and popped into the park on the way back. Tom even held my hand as we walked along. It was a gorgeous day – in many ways – not least because we…

Trip

Just one month after his last excursion, Tom left for a ten-day skiing holiday this morning. Joining him are his brother, sister-in-law, niece and nephews; uncles, aunts, and cousins. His family. We, his partner, daughter, and step-children, weren’t invited. Again.

1705

Dreaming I am by an open wardrobe. There is a photo frame with a black-and-white photograph in it. The photograph is of a Victorian-looking woman. I know the photo and frame belong to previous residents of the house. I take the back off the frame to take the photo out and find a piece of…

Family

Dreaming I am at a family get-together; it is summer, and the feeling is very relaxed. I am inside taking photographs. I decide to take some of the people outside as the light would produce a better photo. Outside are Grandad, Justin, Dean, and some others. I sit on a picnic bench next to Justin. Ants are…

Behind

Tom went to visit his family today; he’ll be gone for five days. Other than having my family around tomorrow, I don’t really have anything planned for my Tom-free time – other than lots of counting down the hours until he’s home. I miss him already, but I also wish he hadn’t left me and…

Secret

It’ll be Tom’s birthday in a couple of months. I’ve decided to throw him a surprise party to celebrate. It’s also to show him how much he means to me, in the hope that he will want our relationship to work, and will love me back in return. Loads of his friends and family – some…

Engaging

We took the girls on a day out today. Tom spent the whole day engaging the older girls in the activities and caring for Annie, so that I could spend some quality time with the other children. It was such a lovely day – made even better when Annie giggled for the first time. It…

Load

My family had a get-together today. Tom refused to come. He said he wasn’t prepared to go and be judged by my family after what happened, especially as he feels that he was goaded into it. As he was staying home, I asked him if he would hang the washing on the line to dry,…

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Runners

Six

Denial

Strength

Garden

Eve

Brother

Hand

Trip

1705

Family

Behind

Nothing

Secret

Engaging

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