Illogical

I suddenly had the strongest intuitive sense that I needed to have sex with Tom today. It didn’t make any sense to my logical mind, but I couldn’t rid myself of the feeling. After trying to make sense of it for a couple of hours, I decided to listen to it instead. I sent Tom…

Sorry

This morning, while drying myself after my shower, I managed to pull a muscle in my back. It was painful and limiting my movements, so after dropping Annie to school, I nipped into Tom’s to ask him to knead it out a bit. It worked, and my back felt much better afterwards. Really what I…

Hesitantly

Dreaming I am sitting at the kitchen table; Tom leans over me and says, “There’s been a lack of kisses around here lately.” He then leans in and kisses my lips. I’m concerned about the kids seeing, but I hesitantly kiss him back. After a couple of kisses, it becomes slightly more urgent, and Tom asks if I’m still on my period. He wants sex, but I don’t know where we would do it with the kids around. I want to, though.

Out

Last night, I went out with my friend Sam, and it did me so much good. Although I’m suffering slightly today, mainly from tiredness, I’d do it all again in a heartbeat. I love our nights out together, although they haven’t happened for such a long time. Most of all, I’m feeling something that I…

Flirting

I went on a date with Theo last night.

Held

I met up with Phil last night, totally spontaneously. I was at home and child-free. I was drinking wine when I decided to get a taxi and go see him.

Needy

At my counselling session today, I told Jane that I think I’m too needy. Jane asked me to tell her what being needy means for me. Needy means I am lacking in love. I need and like a lot of physical affection. I love being hugged and kissed. I love having sex; I love the…

Lounge

Dreaming I am at what looks like an airport lounge, but for a ferry, to go to the Puu Isles. I’m not going to Vama or Cahat but somewhere in between. I am in the queue with my passport. There are two young girls in front, but they slow down and then stop, so I pass them and take my turn. I have to fill out a couple of forms and show my passport. Josh then comes up and does his,…

Almost

I met up with Craig for lunch again today, except lunch was at my house and there was no food prepared, or likely to be. After a couple of minutes of slight awkwardness, Craig came towards me and kissed me. Years of frustration, on my part, took hold, and I almost attacked the poor man….

Lean

I went on a second date with Craig today. It was a little different to our first; Craig ramped up the flirting. As we waited for our food, he leaned in as close as he could, held one side of my face with his hand, bringing my ear closer to his mouth, and whispered, “I…

Shudder

Dreaming I am on the upstairs landing of a house that is mine but not recognisable to me. There are lots of things around me, and if I look up, there is an open-plan loft with loads more stuff. I am in the process of sorting it all out, getting rid of stuff I don’t…

No

Dreaming Tom wants me to wash the sofa; I say no. I am tired of doing it. I know he wants it done for his family coming to visit, but I won’t do it. We argue, but then Tom asks for a kiss. I say no.

Awkward

Dreaming I am with Tom. He takes my hand in his; his hand is so warm and comfortable, and I’ve missed it. I feel complete love for him, and he for me. I never want to let go. We kiss – long, lingering kisses. I notice Amelia watching us through the crack in the door;…