It’s Tom’s sixth day of his skiing holiday with his family. A holiday that was too expensive to take me and the children on, but not too expensive for him.

I’m exhausted managing everything on my own with all four children, although it has been nice not to have any arguing or name-calling.

Being alone and discovering a loneliness I didn’t think I’d feel without him around has made me realise even more that I have to make this work with him.

I don’t want to be a single parent again; it’s too hard, and too lonely.