I’m still having some doubts about whether I feel enough for Phil or not. Really, these fears started last week when I spoke to Karen about a forthcoming appointment we have with a psychic who is reputed to be amazing. I’ve since Googled her and found many reports claiming the same.

My fear at the moment is that the psychic will say he’s not right for me, or I’m not right for him, or that we shouldn’t live together, or that I don’t love him enough, or worst of all, that there’s someone else for me, because then it will confirm any doubts I’ve had, and will leave me at a crossroads I don’t want to be at.

Of course, there’s no hard and fast rule that says I have to believe anything she says, but if she is as accurate as people say she is, and if she gives me reason with other things she says that she’s accurate, then this will leave a lot of questions that need answering.

Ideally, she’ll tell me Phil is perfect, we’ll have a happy life together, and that I can stop worrying, but I don’t think she will. If, as Karen says, she can read your soul, I think she’s going to pick up that I shouldn’t live with Phil because I don’t love him enough, which leaves the question, ‘Why have I agreed to him moving in if I have so many doubts?’

That is not a question I want to face yet.