I’m having a big lesson in letting go today.

For the last three years, I have held on to bags and bags of stuff that we no longer use or want to put on eBay and get some money for, supposedly, but the trouble with that is I hate eBay. I hate the time it takes and all the hassle that comes with it, so I decided to give it away instead, but I’m really struggling with that. I’m struggling with letting go of the control more than anything. I’m concerned that someone may take the items and sell them on. I’m concerned they may go to someone who could afford to buy them themselves.

What I want is for them to go to someone who really needs them, but I have no way of knowing that, so every item I advertise is a struggle. I think I’m giving too much, or I’m worrying about the outcome; I think people will take advantage of my kindness. What I really need to do is just let go and give with nothing but kindness, regardless of what the new owner does with them.

I wonder if this resistance in letting go is mirroring a bigger issue I have with letting go?
With Tom, Greg, the kids, money?

I’m hoping that by being able to let go and give, it will free me in some way.