Dreaming

I go into Rosie’s bedroom after she has had friends to stay; the bedroom is a mess. I notice the mirror is in a different place; I look to where it usually is. There are two big holes in the wall that are deep enough to reach into Josh’s bedroom. I realise Rosie had her mirror here to hide them. I wonder if she’s been eating the cement the way I used to. The hole on the left has a lot of loose cement, dust-like. I scoop some up and eat it; it tastes lovely.

There is a pregnant woman in my house; I feel really angry with her. She goes into my bedroom; I shout at her to get out. She leaves and then comes back. I physically remove her and hurt her in doing so. I feel extremely angry. She tells me I have hurt her as she holds her pregnant belly. She also tells me she is from Blackpool, as if I’m supposed to understand that means she is ‘tough.’ I get the feeling that after the baby is born, she could get back at me physically. I am so angry I don’t care. I just want her out of my bedroom.