Karen and I went to see the psychic today.

She talked about previous relationships and said that I’d had a really rough ride with relationships my entire life. She then repeated that and really stressed the point about how hard a time I’d had, which is something I’ve only accepted myself in the last few weeks. She then talked about two exes and said that one was much younger than the other. She said if not in years, then in maturity. I realised she meant Greg. She said he was never there for me, that I felt let down and that he’s a mummy’s boy, which is very accurate. She also said that he’s always making out he hasn’t got money and that when he says it, he actually believes he can’t afford to give it to me, but she said he’s lying to me and he has got more than he’s let on. Amelia and Rosie told me recently that he told them he’s bought a property that he’s going to rent out. He also told them not to tell me.

She then said that the other man was a better dad and asked if he was the Dad to all the children. I said no, and she said that it was like he was the dad to all because he’s always there for them, more than Greg. Despite that, she said that he was controlling and nasty to me, and then she said, “You’ll never get back with him, will you?” I said no, and she repeated it two more times, stressing to me that I was never to get back with him.

When our time was up, I paid, put on my coat, and was about to leave when she stopped me and asked if I was moving house. I said no. She said there was a new man in my life and that he was kind and lovely and not like the others. She kept talking about how kind and thoughtful he is. She then said he was the one moving and that he’s moving in with us. She said he only had a small place, and so we couldn’t move in with him. She said that he hasn’t got children of his own, but said that he loved my children, they loved him back and that he was happy not to have kids as he had mine. She said there are definitely no kids for us.

She said Phil is meant to move in, and my life is meant to be with him and said we’d be really happy together, and then she ended it by saying, ‘I don’t know if you’re getting married or not though’

That makes sense as I’m uncertain if I want to get married or not. I’m trying to just take it one step at a time, but her reading – whether true or not – was the confirmation that I needed.